not quite the planned halloween party

It started out as friends were coming to the planned party. nates parties are always a hit
hunter the candy corn fairy and mary the bumble bee
they came to take pictures
peyton the cute chef and bailey the cat
obviously on this night his only true friends as they showed up on time and brought pizza
matt, mark and issaac finally showed up an hour late (when the girls had to leave)
well, the next time nate has a party, he may want to make sure the band is in town
(as many of his invites are in band....and well the band was in odessa)

they wound up playing video games and out of costume...and all was ok since that is what these guys really like to do!

an addition to the house

miss k who is 9 came to live with us this past monday night. she came as a foster placement only and could leave us as early as next thursday or stay as long as jan. we are not sure yet. and having adoption as our goal, why we felt inspired to accept k is puzzling to me. her history is sad and the court system does not do these children any justice....strictly about family reunification no matter the price. sad!

miss k is overall a very happy girl who has seen far too much in her young life. i think she has some unofficial adhd going on. i awoke this morning sick physically and emotionally of what i committed too. she is not good at going to sleep and has been a huge struggle these first 2 nights. she has probably never had any routine or positive discipline. i found myself doubting my ability and patience. almost wanting to give up before we have even got started in a routine and our lives at this time.

when i awoke i found myself pleading with heavenly father on what i did and all of my feelings that i have had over the past year. i thought please take her now because i can not do this.... i was able to grab half a second with steve, concerned about when i go back to work (as that needs to be soon), saying how are you going to be able to do this bed time fight, getting her up and ready in the morning on top of all of his stuff. reply: i will just do it. whats the big deal. really he is right. breakfast is done, hair is combed and we are in the car and i think...that was not so bad. i am a complete emotional freak questioning what is meant to be or not. and then i think (and really know) that i am afraid of the attachment that i will form.

so as the day progresses, we will take it one hour at at time.

menopause the musical

all i can say is hysterical and that this play brought tears to our eyes!!! well worth every penny spent on tickets. next time it is in town.....don't hesitate to go :)

Happy Tuesday

Over the past month, i have came to really enjoy tuesday evenings. with steve at work and school until late, it leaves me to have time with nate. i am always a sucker too, as i cave to most of his wishes on this day. the scenario plays out something like this...

nate: whats for dinner?
me: i was thinking we should eat home and have chili dogs
nate: but it's taco tuesday night...cheap. well have chili dogs tomorrow before you go to work
me: (guilt that i have not cooked in far too long) we have no money
nate:come on...we'll do better the rest of the week
me:ok (caving in) as i know that when we go out to eat just mom and son...he divulges to me many things that may not have been said otherwise. after all, i know the nicknames to most of his friends and how cool is that.


oh heck i can rationalize forever...but after working the night before and sleeping most of the day, it is nice to get out and be enlightened by what my teenage son has to offer. at least, he provides a ray of sunshine to my life and to me that is priceless.

the first month of school

the first month of the school year has been an adventure already with discovering new classes and finding new routines. i would like to say that this should be easy...but not always for the wadkins family. i am so very proud of nathaniel and the many projects that he takes on. there is not one class that he has that i would consider easy...and some i can not even begin to think that i would be of help. as nate has started the 10th grade, he has three core classes being pre-ap, (we let the history scate as a regular class) after listening to what had to be endured last year by other parents and students. i must also say that nate starts his day off at 6am with the varsity swim team. yes, this year he is doing seminary at home....not an easy feat for mom and dad as we have to keep up on it. besides swimming, nathan has decided to take on student council this year. that comes with weekly meetings and having to fulfill one volunteer service project a month. we are also encouraging him to finish up his scouting and submit his idea for his eagle project. some days, i think this is quite a lot for a teenage boy who would rather hang with his buddies or play on his laptop. so with all the nagging that i have done about grades...i give my son a big kudos!

steve has also started back to school to earn his masters degree in public administration. i believe he is in overdrive at this time as he adjusts to a very demanding school program. he is again enrolled in UNT which has the 9th ranked MPA program in the nation. the amount of work assigned shows it...on top of this, his job with the state is under a complete over hall, and possibly not for the best.

as for me, well i am bored much of the time. i have a list of many projects to tackle with a few actually being accomplished already. i have finished the extra room in our house. i think it turned out quite nice...but i guess that is if you happen to like IKEA. i was able to assemble the

dresser and night stand in about 31/2 hours without any issues. the room is now only missing a duvet cover and a little one or two with a smile and personality to fill it. we are again licensed for foster care and hopefully will receive a perfect call soon. i have also stained the deck that my dad and nate built last year. steve says that i am just in the mode of wanting to work on my hearth and home. i hope nature and luck see it our way.

i have so much to say but the words do not seem to be flowing at this time. i guess i am in a mode of needing some kind of change. i am looking forward to fall and hopefully the weather cooling down. and who knows maybe some good karma to flow my way. i wish everyone a happy weekend!

Just for fun

Create your own family sticker graphic at pYzam.com

I saw this on while blog surfing and thought it would be fun. not quite our bodies or hair...who really cares.