You have done what you could.
Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in,
forget them as soon as you can.
Tomorrow is a new day,
you shall begin it well and serenely..."
I saw this quote on another blog that I follow and felt impressed to read it and reread it. These are words that I should really learn and think each day that I awake. These days not too much can surprise me or shock me or make me cry....only in my dreams. Life as I knew it is being pulled out right from under my feet.
My days are filled with constant turmoil right now. I am lost, as everything that I thought I had....once had....or believed that I had....I do not have any longer. The changes that have occurred right before my blind eyes and the changes that soon awaits is almost too paralyzing.
I have strived to be the best person, wife and mother that I could be. I have awoke each day with the goal to be the best example to those that I come in contact with. I am human though and have had some bad days. Overall, I feel that I have done the best that situations have sometime allowed.
I believe that my God wants me (us) to be happy and live a fulfilled life. However, I am struggling with many revelations that have presented themselves to me. I am having a difficult time letting go of the What Ifs and Should Haves. Because in the end....maybe the one thing that my son revealed to me this evening still would have been the same. And this could be said for the other trials that I am currently struggling with. I just don't know.
So as I end this day...I hope in this tired mind of mine...that all or at least part of Ralph Waldo Emerson's quote will stick and help me to see that I alone can not control the actions and choices others shall make....no matter how much I wish that I could.